Is it OK to Fail Sometimes

As the 1st semester of my Masters comes to an end, I come back to my blog which has been my respite in times of frustration, disappointment, etc. Its been long since I have written something. Lots of things have changed.

1st thing to note, today as I write this - Its my Mom's Bday - Happy Bday MOM. Please Bless me and always love me and believe in me. I have followed your dream and have come to US and that too in a very highly ranked university. But I may have disappointed you by not performing very well in this semester. But seriously I have tried my best. I have given it my everything. But probably it was a wrong choice of courses that I am unable to devote much time to them. Sometimes failure is unavoidable no matter how hard you try. Not always is hard work rewarded. With that Luck has to be on your side which has deserted me once again, but I am sure it will come back to me big time just like it came at the time of admits.

Here I sit disappointed staring at 2 B's out of 3 courses and another A- or hopefully A in this semester, sitting cursing myself, sitting dejected as the result of this sem would deflate a lot of hopes and dreams including mine. The question I ask the world is - Is it not OK to fail? Why are there so many expectations, hopes, competition that make you feel so much like a loser even at one failure. Even Einstein and Newton and all other greats I'm sure must have failed at least once in their life.

US or INDIA

i am back to writing ....finding some time now with everythin (including ROBOCON n excluding BE proj) over...and findin some private lonely moments with people going on vacation

I sit down to write about the current hot topic in the class ...ADMITS and JOBS....and about the confusion in my mind

starting with jobs...i have one - wipro but had many other gr8 experiences n chances tht i cud not convert...Cisco, Morgan Stanley, JP Morgan, Morgan Chase....

it does hurt n i do envy ppl ...wen i dont get thru n wen my close frnds hav moved ahead to achieve gr8 things...bag gr8 jobs....or earn gr8 admits....i take this blog as an opportunity to vent out my frustration

as far as admits are concerned ...i hav 3 currently wid some pride tht comp guys were rejected whr i hav been accepted...but sincerely the universities don please me much except 4 NCSU which is OK....i hoped n longed 4 UCSB....my heart was broken wen i was rejected by dem...PSU reject was not tht painful....

but i once again feel lost n defeated now tht ppl hav got admits 4m columbia and my future almost fixed to NCSU (Austin n stony brook being impossible)

again coming back to my own wish....do i rly want to go abroad?

do i want to study further?

i started off wid aims of MBA which were changed suddenly to MS to fulfill certain dreams which still hold me back to choose freely...also post graduation almost has become inevitable if u hav to succeed

sure i dont want to stay at home ...but tht wud b taken care of even wid wipro being in pune or bangalore...plus it has the added advantage of coming back to the family wen u please

US ...u cannot come back 4 at least 5 yrs....and then too its vry difficult

i dont want to actually study more immediately....i am more interested in practical learning

but as i said some dreams are hard to let go....

now i m even more weakened by my dad sayin casually to stay back...i m findin it hard to deicde as to what to do

can somebody help me??!!!