Another one bites the dust

I dont know why God does this to me, but He frustrates me a lot. He takes me so close to opportunities and then takes them away from me. Today I came so close to getting a Hindi TA which would have meant full tuition waiver for the next 3 sems but no after me working hard to make those questions and being honest in my interview, I still got rejected. I just hope he doesnt do that with my Qualcomm intern opportunity.
But again some times He blesses me with luck that is suprising. I wish He would indicate to me of what I was lacking. I am just so very frustrated right now. I dont know what He has in store for me now. I never really want anything for myself these days. I havent asked Him for anything for quite sometime. I asked Him to give me this TA only because I wanted to rid my father of the load of my education. I just wish He gives him strength and some reason to be happy as well.